Sunday, November 26, 2006

5 years of MAD

Yesterday was the fifth anniversary of when the MAD Christian Radio Show hit the airwaves for the first time. Which meant it was also my fifth anniversary of being on the radio.

These past five years of doing MAD have been absolutely incredible. As a young kid I played "radio station" with my siblings, but never dreamed that one day I would have my own show, but so much has changed since then. I've gone from a shy kid lacking confidence to someone who is actually comfortable on the air. And not only comfortable, but feeling fully alive and that's a great thing to be.

I've been asked a lot recently "what do you think is next?" and honestly I don't have an answer for that. I never could have imagined that all of this would have happened when the radio show first started and I have no idea what God has in store for the show or myself in five years.

I do however know that in the short term for me personally some really exciting things are going to be happening. I've been offered a part time job writing for a national countdown show and I have decided to accept that- it was quite an honor to be asked and its something that I really want to do, even if it means letting go of a few other things in my life. Another highlight coming up soon is of course my book being released- wow, I'm still having a hard time believing that one.

I mean how blessed can one person be? I'm only 23 and I'm living my dream. Yes my life has being filled with some hard things and I'm still facing a few personal challenges, but who am I to complain?

I'm living a dream. I love what I do. What more could I ask for?

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

It's Been A While...

Yes, I realize I have become a very inconsistent and lazy blogger, but just in case you were worried, I don't plan on repeating this cycle very often.

This past week and a half has been so busy, I don't know how I got everything done. Big project for work. Study. Gym. Prepare a radio show. Two meetings. Assignments. Drive to Toronto and back. Another meeting. More assignments. Prepare Bible study. Write test. Answer Emails. Put together radio show. Deliver Bible study.

And on top of that, I'm walking around like a zombie because of some sort of sleep issue that has been going on. Needless to say, writing has been one of the last things on my mind.

But in the midst of this busyness and sleepiness it has been good. The trip to Toronto and back was really great- excellent results at the doctors and lots of laughs along the way. This week I've been having so much fun sorting through the archives and picking moments to put together for the MAD Birthday Special that will be airing this weekend (more on that to come).

The project for work is completed and I think I'll be free from that commitment until after Christmas, which will free up some time. The Bible study tonight went really well.

Life has been busy, but it has also been really good. More on God and life to come- I'd write more now but I have to practicing sleeping so I'm all ready for the clinic tomorrow night ;)

Saturday, November 11, 2006


Tonight I was contemplating on my life and I came to an easy conclusion: I couldn't be more content than I am at this moment. I feel as though nothing is lacking and that is a great place to be in. I don't feel this way because life is perfect because it never will be, but rather because I am very happy in this place.

Looking at my life it is quite a contrast from even a year ago. A year ago I was sicker than I have ever been in my life and I really didn't know what the future held. I didn't know at first if I would get well again. And then once I did, I didn't know if I would ever be able to resume my ministries. My voice was shot from the tubes that were forced down my throat and if there's one thing you need in radio, it's a voice. My energy was non existent. And the contract that I was supposed to receive for my book was cancelled when the company sold out. My schooling was out the window and I didn't know if I would ever be able to resume it. Things were very uncertain.

Yet today my life couldn't be more different. My voice was restored, alongside of most of my health. The radio show is going stronger than ever- just this week five new stations in the US decided to air it and this month I'm celebrating five years on the air! My book has been picked up by a publisher and will be in stores in mere weeks. I'm back in school and I have my funding for that. Life is good. Quite a contrast from a year ago.

Yet through this contrast I have learned that my faith in God is not dependent on circumstances, which to me shines the existence of God in my life even more so. My faith in Him is just as strong today as it was last October. In fact, through the trials it was made even stronger.

Today I know beyond all doubt that God has a plan for my life and that His plan is perfect. I am no longer worried about where this life leads me because I know that no matter what "detours" I have to take, I'm going to end up exactly where He wants me. And there truly is no better place to be!

So today I smile because I know this is exactly where I am supposed to be in my life. And ironically, it is the same smile that came to my face last year at this time when I had the same realization. Yes the circumstances this time are different, but that peace is still the same.

And so today I go, I listen, and I obey. I may stay here for a while longer or God may have something else for me just around the corner- I don't know. But I do know that with Him as my guide, my life will be complete both in the smooth stretches of the road and in the bumpy sections of road.

As the Proverb says so well: "We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps." Thank God for that!

Thursday, November 02, 2006

The forbidden word: death

Want to make everyone around you uncomfortable? Say the word "death" and mission accomplished! I've talked to many different people from different walks of life from different age groups and the one thing that we all have in common is that we don't like talking about death. This discomfort stretches across lines of race and religion. Of wealth and poverty. It makes no difference where we come from or what experiences we have: we're uncomfortable with death.

I can say that pretty confidently because I for one can admit that death makes me uncomfortable. I don't like to talk about it. I don't like to hear about it. It's far easier to just ignore it than it is to face it. And so my vocabulary avoids it. My actions ignore it. I talk about healing and life and leave the talk of death to doctors and funeral directors.

Even during my illness I didn't want to talk or think about death and being in a hospital made that kind of difficult to avoid, yet avoid it I did. When a patient down the hall from me passed away, I hid in my room until I was 100% certain that there were no upset family members still in the hallway. When I would hear multiple "code blues" over the speaker system, I would say a quick prayer and turn up the television. I did everything possible to avoid the topic in a place where the subject can't be denied. And I know I'm not the only one to ever do this.

Actually when I really think about it, being uncomfortable with death makes sense if you believe in the God of the Bible. But it sure doesn't make sense if you don't. I know that sounds opposite to what we are taught, but hear me out for a second.

If we are nothing more than a by product of a big bang and there is nothing more than nature that is behind our existence, wouldn't death be the most natural thing in the world? In an ever evolving world, old life dies and new evolved life springs forth. It's the circle of life. It's the chain of nature. Yet if that was the case, wouldn't we have evolved on some sort of an emotional level to not only accept death, but deal with it as a regular occurrence in life? The same way we deal with our human limitations? Really if we had evolved free from any sort of a god and any kind of concept like eternity, death would make sense. It wouldn't paralyse. It wouldn't destroy. It would be a natural part of our existence.

But it's not and that makes my faith the most natural thing in the world. Why? Because the way I read it in Genesis, we as humans were not designed to die. We were created to live forever in the Garden of Eden. We were given access to eternal life, but we messed it up and through our sin introduced all kinds of nasty things into our world. So instead of leaving us to live forever in a fallen state, God did us a favour and evicted us from the garden so that we didn't have a choice in the matter.

Life outside of Eden meant that where once we were created to be alive for all eternity, we transitioned into fragile and mortal beings. It also meant that in order to have eternal life, God would have to provide another way in Jesus. We were made to live forever, we messed it up, and thus our struggle with accepting death makes sense.

And while the Christian faith explains our problem dealing with death, it also makes death out to be no less than a glorious transition. I tend to think of it now in the same way as being put under anaesthetic for surgery: you feel yourself floating then blank out. But in death instead of awaking in a recovery room somewhere in pain, you wake up in the most glorious place that could ever be wondering why you were so nervous about the journey.

Yes death is uncomfortable to talk about at times and yes, it doesn't always make sense. That's just one more consequence of the fall, but thank God it's not a permanent one!